& you're the finest thing that i've done.

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[ It's raining today.

Usually, Yamamoto doesn't mind. Rain doesn't bother him; it's not supposed to, right, it's his element, something that defines him, something that's etched into who he is, into what makes up his DNA. But today is different. A lot of things about today are different, and he shouldn't --

( Shouldn't be so fucking selfish or so goddamn angry, but he is. )

Yamamoto sits with his blade out, the sharp gleaming end of the katana stuck against the wood floor as he props both of his hands on top of the hilt, dropping his chin toward his chest. And he laughs; it's quiet, breathy, but his shoulders shake with it, anyway, and he brings one hand up, rubs his thumb against the scar on his chin.

He can hear the rain from inside, hitting against the glass pane of the windows, streaking down to puddle into the corners of the sill, and the aging wood soaks up the water. And he's surprised by how much it irritates him -- what the hell, Yamamoto, get a grip, shouldn't you be glad. Byakuran is gone ( but that name still wrenches a hole in his gut, even now ) -- and Tsuna --

But.

His fingers curl around the hilt of his blade, and he peers up without lifting his chin, focused on the polished nickel of the door handle across from him. Hibari would be here soon. ]

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[hyetals.livejournal.com]

Does it get easier? Pretending not to give a shit?

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[ There is something Hibari has learned long ago - never show weakness, not to enemies, and never to allies.

Least of all to lovers.

His breath is knocked out of him when his back hits the door, but he doesn't make a sound - doesn't offer the slightest clue that perhaps he had felt somewhat guilty (an emotion that serves no plausible use to him, but frustrates him at the same time) - but necessity is necessity, and it is necessary for them to grieve the way they did.

Because he knows, more than anything, that the most authentic performance is something that is truly felt.

He meets his eyes after a moment, the question hitting a chord in him, and his lips thin, just a tad. Don't ask him questions he doesn't know how to answer, Yamamoto. He inhales the other man's scent - he's close enough to feel that warmth from him. ]

What answer are you waiting for, Yamamoto Takeshi?

[hyetals.livejournal.com]

You tell me, Hibari.

[isfuckingnike.livejournal.com]

[ Hibari thinks that he vastly prefers the mindless violence to this. This slow silence that builds between them - that sends across things they can't really say - forces him to think, to contemplate. He can read Yamamoto exceptionally well, now. Know every subtle nuance, every unspoken desire, and whatever silly whim he finds himself caught up in.

Hibari indulges silently, most times - because Yamamoto is someone worth admiring when it comes to ability, and because somehow, the man had managed to secure himself a place in Hibari's world.

He moves, a little awkwardly - because he never quite knows how to handle things like this, even if he has years of experience with the Rain Guardian - and there is a strange sort of knot in his throat. Odd, unfamiliar. and a part of him thinks that he should at least say something.

His eyes flutter shut - only because he's unwilling to let Yamamoto see the flicker within his gaze, the hint that Hibari is not as cold as he sets himself up to be. Yamamoto, of all people, should know that, shouldn't he? The signs are all there - the little birds and creatures he would adopt, those too tiny to defend themselves properly, the way he defends his own allies under the guise of callous words, and even more callous attacks.

So he doesn't tell him a thing. And rather, tugs him down, then, pressing his lips against his. ]

...I don't need to tell you anything.

[ Yamamoto will understand, eventually. He always does. ]

[hyetals.livejournal.com]

[isfuckingnike.livejournal.com]

[ Hibari checks the urge to deck him when he laughs, because he imagines that this is not the appropriate time for it. Strangely enough, however, he feels the knot in his shoulders loosen, relaxing. Because in Yamamoto-speak, things are something resembling fine, now.

Arching, just a little, with a lazy cat-like grace when Yamamoto's fingers wander, Hibari parts his mouth - and thinks that Yamamoto is sometimes too gentle for his own good.

Too forgiving when it comes to certain people, really. But he isn't going to complain. Not now, at least. Not when his kisses are warm and welcome, and when he's pushed against the door like this, the spark of desire coming alive within him at the kiss. It's been too long, and his fingers fumble briefly with Yamamoto's shirt buttons before he returns that kiss with a rare passion, a silent demand. ]

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[isfuckingnike.livejournal.com]

[ He's pulled along, and he willingly follows, eager and hungry and needing him. Yamamoto's touch is firm, but still teasing, and he returns the kiss with a ferocity that is almost uncharacteristic, and yet fitting all at the same time.

He snaps the buttons, then - because Hibari is not a patient man either, and smiles against Yamamoto's mouth when he hears it clatter all over the floor, finding a perverse pleasure in ruining the other guardian's shirt. He lets him explore his mouth, savors those fingers in his hair, as he slips his own hands inside that shirt, stroking over smooth, scarred abs, and upward. ]